I'm Jessica. Staying psychedelic is tough in Las Vegas. I'm trying to barista my way through college. If you want a clearer view of who I am here are some gpoys and my second blog.
You’re always pacing the back alleys of my mind.
but I’m not feeling it anymore.
Preoccupied with school. It really sucks these are my last few weeks of my last “easy” semester. This semester isn’t even exceedingly easy. I’m taking five classes this summer, six classes next semester…
Preoccupied with work. Unemployment didn’t last very long…
Preoccupied with indecision and desire.
at this point, I’m just waiting for my finger nail to fall off
I may look like an idiot, but at least….
There is the safety net, it makes everything alright.
Alright. All right. Ay-okay. Ace. Cool.
I drank water bottle after water bottle in a dream. I drank enough to flood my digestive system (or whatever floods when one drinks too much water). The water bearer, right at your service.
As I get older, I realize I get less and less convincing. It’s unsettling. My antics are ineffective. It’s wrong to word certain things as facts. It’s nice that everyone lets everything go. I surround myself with better people, people that are better than I. I. I. I—— Me. Me. Me. Me. My blog, my train of thought. If you don’t enjoy it, I apologize for losing my touch. Maybe I used to be more entertaining. Everything I write blows.
I’m tired of embarrassing myself. I’ll just, uhm, shift my focus. Yeah. I’ll shift my focus. I’ll keep changing for the better. I want to be the best person I can be. I don’t want to be mean, demanding, and lazy. I want to stay articulate, but quiet down. It’s alright to have ideas, but I’m done giving all of my crazy ideas a fair chance. Being as extravagant as I feel, feels like a joke.
Part of me doesn’t want to come back down to reality. The other part of me wants to completely level out, because I might not even be half way there. How level-headed am I aiming for?
Productivity is nothing without positivity.
My brother went into rehab today. This is a post full of gratitude; all is full of love.
My control issues are over my desire to be evasive and persuasive. It’s empirical, therefore there is truth behind it. There’s a quote I could appropriately place here. “The funny thing about the truth, is that people tend to associate the truth with what is right”.
It is wrong to play people like maleable characters.
